My Life on Earth so far…

December 9th, 2015

Have you ever been to a party where you don’t know very many people there, everyone is drinking – a lot – and talking really loud, and you aren’t anywhere near those few people you do know, the ones who invited you in the first place, and the people who are nearby, while you appreciate that they’re enjoying themselves, are talking about something you can’t even pretend to be interested in or informed about, so you decide to go outside to get some air and some space and some quiet…  then you breath, and you wonder why you are even at this party, and you start thinking you’ll just go home and let the party go on without you – you’ll hardly be missed, after all – and you ask yourself, why did I come? and yet you are frozen, paralyzed by a choice you have no answer for, wondering if you might be able to find the friends you came with because maybe they’re having fun and you can find some comfort in their presence, but you still can’t move because the power of the party is pushing you out, putting up a barrier you really have no desire or energy to breech, and finally you send out a signal to your friends, hoping they’ll hear it, hoping they’ll find you, outside the party-wall, outside in the air, outside.

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